Thursday, May 27, 2010

The Struggle

As a Dad and a Husband I seem to face an ever growing challenge. How do I fit it all in?

I work hard to support my family. As you can tell by the title of my blog I travel a lot. So this always is a challenge for me and my family.

I want to start out by saying that I try to do it all but sometimes it just cant be done.

I have a great relationship with my wife and our two daughters. The relationship with my son is not so easy.

Big D and I have our challenges. Mostly because of his mother. She tries to keep him away from me and she does everything in her power to make that happen. When Big D is here he is happy.He smiles and plays and does other thing beside what his standard answer when I call him.... "Playing Video Games".
We try hard to have great weekends when he comes down. We make time for us to do fun things as a family. And we still have some Daddy and Big D time.
I call him almost everyday and rarely do I get a call back. I text him ... no response. This put a great deal of pressure on me. I feel guilty that I cant see him or that I feel like he does not want me around.
This puts great pressure on my other relationships. Mommy D understands where I am coming from but it frustrates her that there is nothing that we can do right now.
So I try to be all things to all people.

A great Husband..
A good Father...
A good Employee..
A good Friend...

And when I cant do it all I get frustrated and shut down which is not fair to my family. I often get afraid that i am slipping into depression and I cant dig my way out. I know I cant please everyone all the time but I try....
To my family I am sorry that I cant be all those things. I love you all...

1 comment:

  1. Don't get depressed, we'll get through this together. In the meantime, you mean the world to me <3